Wednesday, October 27, 2010
I heard from a social worker today and she told me that Anna's foster parents are awesome people. I can't tell you the weight that has been lifted. I know I will still have to get through my daily "moments", but I feel much better knowing this. Mr. Pearl and Pebble and I are getting away for a couple days. This will be good too I think. I've also started putting things away each day. Today it was the bottles. Still can't bring myself to wash her clothes or move any linens out of the crib. Her little head print is still on the flannel burp cloth I made her. But I do feel better at least at the moment. Baby steps right? Have a good night all. Thanks for listening:)
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My heart hurts for you. I don't have any words, but my heart goes out to you.
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely, baby steps. This is what you need to do right now. While this is totally unrelated to what you are going through, I'd like to share what I did when my son deployed the first time. I had laundry of his in a basket in his room. I kept it there, unwashed, for months. It was therapeutic. I didn't know if he'd ever be back. It's good for you to have that tangible piece of Anna. You've done well. You need to hold onto this part of your lives. Hugs, LeAnn
ReplyDeleteI wish I knew what to say to make it all better. you had two months - no one can take that away. Will always be here to listen.
ReplyDeleteYou and your husband gave that sweet little girl a wonderful start to her life. This is what you were suppose to do. It will get better each day.
ReplyDeletePrayers for you and your husband that your ache will be taken away as swiftly as possible ... one day you'll realize, it's just gone, you don't know when it happened, but you'll feel relief.
ReplyDeleteenjoy your getaway - you will never forget her, you shared yourself with her and nurtured her... you are a part of her... and she you... cry when you need to...
ReplyDeleteThis time with Mr. P & P is good...focus on each other...time will heal! You won't forget Anna, she will always be in your hearts!
ReplyDeleteOne moment at a time...
I feel so sad for you and Jeremy. I know you took great care of Anna. If you want to get together sometime soon just give me a call.
ReplyDeleteStill here with hugs and prayers for you and your Mr. Take care of yourself...Jen
ReplyDeleteThinking about you! Hope you are OK.
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